Post by Edith S. Baker on Aug 22, 2007 22:49:23 GMT -4
Here's the eighth part of my fanfic. Annie tells us her side of her relationship with Ben, her love for Alex, and Ben’s lies.
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Title: Ben, Annie, and Alex (Part 8) “Annie’s View”
Author: spicedogs of Live Journal (which happens to be me)
Fandom: Lost
Rating: G
Disclaimer: I do not own LOST. This story is written for fan entertainment only. No profit do I get from this story other than knowing that others enjoy this story as much as I enjoyed writing it.
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I remember the day I met Ben. He thinks that I forgot it all, but I didn’t. He wants everyone to think that he was born on the island, and I let him perpetuate that myth. I often thought about why I let him lie. I think that I do let him lie because he is happy when he lives the world he makes up. He had such an unhappy life before he came to the island. It was almost as if he was reborn on this island. No wonder he says to everyone that he was born here.
My parents liked Ben at first. He was a smart, but a very shy boy. But as he grew up, he decided not to pursue his studies. He decided to be a workman just like his father. My parents did not want me to see him anymore. I wouldn’t have it. I loved Ben. I married him. My parents disowned me. It’s the price I pay for loving Ben.
No one knew but me that his father abused him. He was always yelling at Ben for having killed his mother. All Ben did was be born. What is wrong with Roger? Oh, I’ll tell you what’s wrong with Roger. He is a drunken pig—an ignorant pig. Unfortunately, I have to live with that pig. It’s the price I pay for loving Ben.
I fell in love with Ben the very day I met him. He was 10 and I was 9. Miss Olivia was our teacher. He didn’t talk to anyone. Of course, no one talked to him either. His father was a workman. No one wanted to associate with a workman’s son. I didn’t care. I thought that he was cute. I taught him all the protocols that he had to follow in school. I showed him where the Apollo bars were kept. I taught him how to hide when the Hostiles came and attacked us. He was so nice to me. He became my best friend. It was the joy I got for loving him.
I remember one day asking about his birthday. His eyes started tearing up. I pretended not to see it. I didn’t want to embarrass him. He told me about his birth, how his mother died giving birth to him, how his father blamed him for killing his mother, and how his father never wished him a happy birthday and never gave him a gift either. That same year, on December 21, on his birthday, I gave him one of the the two wooden-carved dolls that I made. The dolls represented us. I kept the male, and I gave him the female. That way we would never have to be away from each other. It was my first showing of the love I felt for him.
Ben liked me. I know he did. He liked to be with me a lot. He once asked me to keep his secret. I promised that I would. He told me about his friendship with the Hostiles. He told me about Richard and how he was teaching him about their people. He told me how we at DHARMA were being abusive to the land and the Hostiles and that was why they attacked us. I promised Ben never to tell anyone about his secret. And to this day, no one knows that Ben is friendly with them. No one knows that I am friendly with them either. Ben says that my silence will save our lives one day.
I kept Ben’s secret, the way I keep his lies a secret. I never tell anyone that he was born in the United States. I pretend that I was the one guided by him that first day in school and not him. I think that sometimes Ben believes his own lies. But despite his lies, Ben is a good guy.
Two years ago, Ben brought a baby to our lives. He named her Alexandra. She is my sunshine. I love her and Ben adores her. Grandpa Roger likes her when he is sober. My parents refuse to meet her. Ben convinced everyone that I gave birth to the child. As I always did before, I keep Ben’s secrets by pretending that his lies are truths.
I didn’t give birth to my daughter, but I love her as if I did. I don’t know how Ben obtained her. He told me that she was orphaned when a ship marooned on our island, and all the crew died but the baby. I think Ben is lying. I think he is hiding the truth. I try not to think about it. I love Ben. He is a good guy. He just likes to lie. He likes to live a world of make believe. But he makes me happy. He makes Alex happy. He is a good guy.
I learned to love Jacob. Ben believes in Jacob. Ben says that if we believe in Jacob, he will make us happy and our wishes may come true. I am happy that Jacob did listen to my pleas. Now, miracle of miracles I am with child. I’m 4 months pregnant. I am going to have a baby. This time there will be no lie. Jacob does love me. But best of all, Ben loves me.
To be continued…..
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Title: Ben, Annie, and Alex (Part 8) “Annie’s View”
Author: spicedogs of Live Journal (which happens to be me)
Fandom: Lost
Rating: G
Disclaimer: I do not own LOST. This story is written for fan entertainment only. No profit do I get from this story other than knowing that others enjoy this story as much as I enjoyed writing it.
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I remember the day I met Ben. He thinks that I forgot it all, but I didn’t. He wants everyone to think that he was born on the island, and I let him perpetuate that myth. I often thought about why I let him lie. I think that I do let him lie because he is happy when he lives the world he makes up. He had such an unhappy life before he came to the island. It was almost as if he was reborn on this island. No wonder he says to everyone that he was born here.
My parents liked Ben at first. He was a smart, but a very shy boy. But as he grew up, he decided not to pursue his studies. He decided to be a workman just like his father. My parents did not want me to see him anymore. I wouldn’t have it. I loved Ben. I married him. My parents disowned me. It’s the price I pay for loving Ben.
No one knew but me that his father abused him. He was always yelling at Ben for having killed his mother. All Ben did was be born. What is wrong with Roger? Oh, I’ll tell you what’s wrong with Roger. He is a drunken pig—an ignorant pig. Unfortunately, I have to live with that pig. It’s the price I pay for loving Ben.
I fell in love with Ben the very day I met him. He was 10 and I was 9. Miss Olivia was our teacher. He didn’t talk to anyone. Of course, no one talked to him either. His father was a workman. No one wanted to associate with a workman’s son. I didn’t care. I thought that he was cute. I taught him all the protocols that he had to follow in school. I showed him where the Apollo bars were kept. I taught him how to hide when the Hostiles came and attacked us. He was so nice to me. He became my best friend. It was the joy I got for loving him.
I remember one day asking about his birthday. His eyes started tearing up. I pretended not to see it. I didn’t want to embarrass him. He told me about his birth, how his mother died giving birth to him, how his father blamed him for killing his mother, and how his father never wished him a happy birthday and never gave him a gift either. That same year, on December 21, on his birthday, I gave him one of the the two wooden-carved dolls that I made. The dolls represented us. I kept the male, and I gave him the female. That way we would never have to be away from each other. It was my first showing of the love I felt for him.
Ben liked me. I know he did. He liked to be with me a lot. He once asked me to keep his secret. I promised that I would. He told me about his friendship with the Hostiles. He told me about Richard and how he was teaching him about their people. He told me how we at DHARMA were being abusive to the land and the Hostiles and that was why they attacked us. I promised Ben never to tell anyone about his secret. And to this day, no one knows that Ben is friendly with them. No one knows that I am friendly with them either. Ben says that my silence will save our lives one day.
I kept Ben’s secret, the way I keep his lies a secret. I never tell anyone that he was born in the United States. I pretend that I was the one guided by him that first day in school and not him. I think that sometimes Ben believes his own lies. But despite his lies, Ben is a good guy.
Two years ago, Ben brought a baby to our lives. He named her Alexandra. She is my sunshine. I love her and Ben adores her. Grandpa Roger likes her when he is sober. My parents refuse to meet her. Ben convinced everyone that I gave birth to the child. As I always did before, I keep Ben’s secrets by pretending that his lies are truths.
I didn’t give birth to my daughter, but I love her as if I did. I don’t know how Ben obtained her. He told me that she was orphaned when a ship marooned on our island, and all the crew died but the baby. I think Ben is lying. I think he is hiding the truth. I try not to think about it. I love Ben. He is a good guy. He just likes to lie. He likes to live a world of make believe. But he makes me happy. He makes Alex happy. He is a good guy.
I learned to love Jacob. Ben believes in Jacob. Ben says that if we believe in Jacob, he will make us happy and our wishes may come true. I am happy that Jacob did listen to my pleas. Now, miracle of miracles I am with child. I’m 4 months pregnant. I am going to have a baby. This time there will be no lie. Jacob does love me. But best of all, Ben loves me.
To be continued…..
